im just a thinker...and i cant help it...so i ponder upon things constantly...even without having to...you may be wondering, wht exactly am i going on abt?....i shall fill u in on that...its just the whole 'feeling like u know alot'...but not actually knowing it...i dont know....i guess deep down u do...just the fact that u have to share those opinions and u wonder what others will think abt it...and as usual, ive been questioning so many things...i miss the old me...alot...im trying to get that back...which makes me wonder, if i want something else does it mean that im not happy with what i have? the answer is : no...just that i wana be a whole lot more...and as grateful as i am...im not gna b alone...bf =)...n dont worry...not gna get all lovey dovey...but honestly, this is so different from previous relationships...we are more comfortable with each other i guess...and the previous bf's didnt make me open up and stuff...so maybe thats why im stuck at times....but im working on it...ok so enough on that...why im here...LOVE....strong word...
definition of love ( the way i would put it ) : the strongest emotion that can be felt..could be the best and worst feeling...can make u the strongest and yet make a turn and turn u into the most vulnerable...is something that we all strive for...everyone wants to experience 'true love'...or something close to it...just the feeling of being loved and understood places u above any other...
true love: do i believe in it? honestly, nope...its funny...being the whole romantic at heart...i dont believe in the whole love at first sight...its more of how u make urself feel...if u think its love at first sight...then thats what it will be...true love on the other hand...people feel like they can find that...but maybe its that ordinary relationship...that u work on...and becomes unbreakable..that bond...maybe thats true love...not the whole 'true love- i just know its right...by the feeling i get when im with that person'...isnt that attraction?
i guess im more into the whole first friends, then lovers concept...makes more sense i guess...know stuff abt the person first....and in this case, i guess u will still have that friendship if stuff doesnt work out coz u were friends from the start...take for granted that ur going out with this person..and stuff doesnt work out...u were never friends...do u think u'd have a close shot at frenship...if its a mutual thing, maybe....or if u are lucky and it does work...it will take alot of time i guess....
aspects: => attraction : the feeling of wanting to be with someone...
=> affection: it is identified with emotion...but both are two very different things...affection is more to actions...ways of showing your love and care for a person...
=>emotion: complex experiences...we express them through terms, gestures and attitudes..
having said this...love comes in all different forms...it could be love for your family, friends, other half, pets...or passion for a certain thing...but i guess altogether...it sums up that 4 letter word...its just all these little things that give the word meaning...and ive never thought abt things that way...but everyones perception of love is different...some people may go on and on...trying to search for a 'soul mate' or 'the one'....but others find it right away...so maybe its more of how u make it...how eventually u get so attached that u know u couldnt be happy with anyone else...and then u devote urself to just that one person...i thought about that...how will u know when that person is the one? are there hints...or do u just know? maybe its the whole combination of attachment, care, intimacy, bonds, etc...or maybe its just ur choice...i mean obvs it is...but maybe its what u make of it....
i keep hearing this song 'if i were a boy'....she talks about how if she were a guy, she'd be a better man...i mean...obviously u'd know how u'd want to be treated, but u cant expect them to read ur mind..no1 can..so maybe its more of that level of understanding...once u share how u feel and how u want to be treated, then maybe it would work out much better...i mean, we each want something we think we'd never get from our other half...and they too would want things from us girls...so its all fair...and maybe its vulnerability altogether...love makes u vulnerable...its so true...u tend to stoop...and u go so low...just to get that feeling...but is it worth putting urself so far down...getting stepped on...just for the sake of that one emotion? obvs not...but it just happens like that...u go blind...and trust so easily....just coz u wanna love and be loved in return...just goes to show how powerful it is...other people are just too fragile...break too easily...what happened to 'there are many fish in the sea'? i guess u just tend to feel so bad if it doesnt work out...rejection is a painful process and it takes time...all the avoidance that comes together with it...* at times like these, i guess all we can do is have faith and remain strong...and comfort food :)...but at the same time, u should be grateful...grateful that u had that chance to love and be loved...and the memories are what will stick with u...
so i guess overall, it varies from person to person...everyone will have different opinions and outlooks on love...so maybe we will never know the true meaning...then it would make us all very wrong...no doubt we have all felt it...doesnt matter from who or what...but we've all felt love..and maybe its a religious kinda thing...that faith u have...its more of what u devote urself to...but yeah...but im sure it has to do with emotions and appearances...we all deny the fact..and many say 'its whats on the inside that matters'....but this is rarely to be found true...but some people do do it...seeing every person as unique and stuff...and more to the sincerity....others care more abt emotions , etc...
'power of love'....just goes to show how strong it really is..and how everyone thrives for it...so yeah, maybe u'll eventually feel it...and know when its the right person...i dont know if i can call it soul searching...lets just stick to the word...L.O.V.E
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