coming to the realization of things

ive been quite emo lately...or well for quite some time..not random mood swings or anything..just been worrying way too much...when there was nothing much to worry abt to begin with...maybe sometimes u just let things be...let go, things happen 4 a reason...n i guess its pretty much impossible to try and stop sumthin that is meant to happen all along...this is quite weird...hints as to when ur biological clock is messed up? when u sleep so little ( and deep down u love to sleep and require a huge amount of it...shhh!!! )....and u sleep at almost 1...and suddenly wake up at 3 smthn...i normally dont even get up for phone calls or msgs if im deep in sleep..but today i was already awake...so a fren texted...it was like...im normally cranky abt phone calls n stuff late in the night...or well technically morning...but i replied....n then it wasnt a dream...not one of those i dreamt abt something but have no idea what it was...but just random thoughts...i think thats what woke me up...i realized so many things...ive been searching for answers...answers as to my happiness thing n all that...n i thnk i hav all of them now...it feels good...honestly...then theres the whole im always hungry...no nothing happen...not preggers or anythin...just idk...n it happens like late at night...what is that abt??? so yeah, weird stuff...and ive been having fun teasing certain people with BIG words...hahahha...sorta mean but yeah...need some kind of entertainment....so yes...back to the point...questions have answers...my questions i mean...let go of the past...thriving for the future! =)...i hav class at 8am...n with the 3 hrs of sleep i had, the cup of coffee ( i seriously dont know how far thats gonna get me)....so wish me luck...i might sleep off...ive never slept off in class...almost but not jst there yet...so yeah...trying to stay awake...maybe i should get myself all hyper or smthn...hahahha....