inner peace

maybe ive reached that already...i talked about my problems...i admitted i wasnt happy...but why am i not happy? i have absolutely nothing 2 be sad abt...n then i was considering what could make me happy...n theres nothing that came to mind....but i say i feel empty...if i cant think of something thats missing then it means nothing is? idk...but im starting to feel so...maybe i just think i have something to be sad abt...at one point i was so happy...after exams n all that..maybe i had more time to care abt myself...but well...at that point i was certain n knew what i really really wanted...i thrived...so maybe stuff didnt turn out as xpected...but every1 has second chances...which made me wonder...is it worth it worrying abt things that shouldnt even be worried abt in the first place? i guess not...its just a waste of time and energy and u get urself more jumpy than u are...haha...so yes...maybe its clear now....n people can have everythin in the world n feel that something is missing...even the littlest thing can have the biggest effects on peoples lives....maybe im worried abt my family...that stuff doesnt go well...but no1's perfect afterall....so maybe u just look past all that n TRY to make things better...afterall they are still a part of ur life...then other things that bring happiness....singing? other things? love? whch made me wonder...till what extent would i go to be loved...i may be a sick romantic but i dont give in that easily...i dont trust..n when i let go...things dont exactly go well...maybe i let go too much....n am blinded by certain things...im thinking i understand stuff a whole lot better now..afterall...the past experiences and everything else still defines u...maybe it was once part of ur life..but u dont need to keep holding on to the past...let go..n strive forward....strive for the future...make it a better one