life's little suprises!

OMG...OMG...i cant believe this...my aunt was preggers...her youngest child is 16..so im kinda shocked...had a miscarriage...just these little things u miss coz u arent near by..aunts in the US so yeah...found out over FB! lucky 4 Fb coz it actually keeps u updated n stuff....but im shocked...just goes 2 show that anythin can happen n life will suprise you..with these kinda things...im so not focused...so upset i just dont know what 2 do...i had a few topics...but will post pone...as usual...like how i say ill continue n stuff but never do...will get to that...soon enough...i hope...seriously doubt so many things right now...i hv 2 admit, just this one time...im really sick of love...i am...it makes u feel great (dont get me wrong)...but what do u do when u dont have that special sum1.?? i dont know...u just try n make urself happy with frens n stuff...but the emptiness is still there....but these are the ppl who are always there for you...frens i mean...they'd do anythin...so till u settle down...this is what u rely on i gues....doesnt help the whole emptiness feelin...but yeah..good enuf...4 the time being..i feel like im goin in circles...ah well, guess this tends 2 happen when ur emo...just so much on my mind...goin 4 a walk later so hopefully that helps...goin to the airport 2morro...send my fren off...i hope i dont cry...will make it so much harder...but guess this is what i hav to do if i dont wanna regret it...if i dont go, il always be wondering...so yeah, guess thats the right thing to do...will get back to this later....have to go revise history!