life...in general

just came in...been having sum pretty weird days...like...friday night...went home 4 a day...then sunday...then yesterday...was ok...cuzins bday...so went there...(had good food =) )....had fun with fam...for once...haha...our family gatherings n stuff dont normally go well..been hanging out n stuff...but somethings missing its so obvious..so i feel like i hav to be honest abt stuff or im never gna figure this out...honest to myself...was crushed coz of a guy...but thats so yesterday....then theres the whole family issue...then theres my xtreme shyness...then coll.....honestly less than xpected and gosh...at times i just dont know...a person who i thot i could tell everything to...i just cant...and worst of all...i feel like im judged...by almost everyone...but thats normal...we judge and get judged...i care abt stuff but ppl think i dont...feel so misinterpreted....2morro is my frens bday...so we r going to hang out in kl...should be awesome...=).....i need 2 feel happy...coz i havent been that happy lately...dont know why...so yea...have to think abt it and figure loads out...still...gosh...haha..i think ive said that before..the whole figure stuff out...just goes to show that i barely figured anythin out....ah well..