preferences...???

ok so i was watching tv...ok maybe ive been watching way too much of it...cant blame me...i live without at coll...thx to the whole....tv isnt working n we arent the ones who are in charge...but watever...thts bsides the point...so jim complained tht cheryl talked too much...always wanted to know what he felt or whats on his mind...( according to jim, btw )...so at first he liked it...the whole peace n quiet...so she dcided to get on his nerves...so she decided not to talk 2 him at all anymore...and without a doubt that drove him off the wall...eventually..n he realized its ok for someone to care abt u...even if its way too much...but the feeling is nice...so then everythin was cool again...so this made me wonder...are the ladies always the ones who tend to blab? even the quietest ones? maybe its just like that...its rare that there will b a guy whos always askin what u feel or whats on ur mind...no1 reads minds..so in most cases u tell them how u feel, but yet; u ask how they feel as well..thats just how it goes...this means that they like to be cared abt too just not like how u treat ur gf's...not the constant pesturing, emo stuff...but just sensible caring...yet again...(my opinion of course! ;)

shoe wheel

i thought this was an interesting invention...i saw it in malaysia...so yeah, kinda cool...do u agree? i mean, im not saying it coz there are like so many pairs of shoes n stuff...or coz i like shoes...but its interesting...creative idea dont u think?

runaway love

tiltle of a song...MJB and ludacris....the video really got to me...coz it was abt children facing problems n stuff...a girl with her mom whos on drugs...bring guys home..n the guys molest her...and she wants to runaway and never come back...then theres a girl who goes out with an older guy...he gets her pregnant...so then she doesnt know what 2 do...she cant raise a child as shes so young and has no money for abortion...its funny how we look past all these things...its like...u'll never know what people are going thru...till u truly know them...even then, u may not...we tend to feel pressured into doing things we dont have to...its ur choice after all...its just the fact that others are doing it that makes u wanna feel it...and at the time u will feel like u have to and theres no way out..so do it if ur sure its what u want...or else wait...its worth the wait...cause if u do something ur unsure of, u'll regret it...but in a way, if u dont try u'll never know rite? some people believe that rules are meant to be broken...just goes to show that our main issue is...curiosity...

women with muscles

just saw it on tv yet again..so made me wonder...do guys like ladies with muscles? all i know is it'd b super weird if the guy had none but the lady did...it would be as though she was the man...and he might feel inferior i guess....anyhow, i guess its ok to work out n stuff...but theres stil a limit..coz like when u've worked out too much u tend to get too buffed...and women showing off their shoulders but revealing very muscular arms is def not sexy...so yeah, this is what i mean...look at SJP....i mean not looks...but the arms...sorta freaks me out...haha...n its way weird how im riting abt ladies...but nah, just a random thought so yeah...bear with me...

the biggest decisions in life

what r the biggest decisions one will have to make in life? r they the ones abt choosing ur life partner, college, job or place u stay? i dont know...maybe the biggest ones are those that if u realize u've made the wrong choice, u tend to regret it altogether...and can never seem to forget them....maybe its one of the thngs listed above.. a job u took...when ur at the peak of ur career u turn down a great offer? but why? did u hope for somethng better than us....maybe greed is a factor...we strive n thrive for more...u may not b materialistic...but u stil want more than u have (currently) right? take time to think abt this...think long n hard ;)

18

18? thats the age im turning this year...so what do i do on my big day? before this, i had huge hopes...but its like when it draws near u tend to get slightly confused....legal age...sounds like a huge thing...or well an accomplishment in ways...but yeah....its the time u officially feel like an adult...i mean coll is a huge step in the whole independence scene...but yeah...18 is a legal thing...it just happens...n maybe it will make u wiser...i mean...bdays before, u tend to think being a year older means that...maybe this does it...actually makes a difference in your life, just maybe...its something to look 4ward 2 if so...so maybe a party, or a small get together, or clubbing..watever it is..age might make all the difference! ;)

the awkward moments that define life..

not talking abt mine...just everyones...my dad literaly jumped (missing one step on stairs! ;)...but yeah, was funny..he sang too...then the times when u feel they know something...i feel like they think ive been doing things i shouldnt hv been doing....then there was thing song abt ice cream and lollipops..ahem...n he felt so awkward coz the whole family was there...so yeah, my driving, new hair cut...holiday pretty much planned out...brother has pmr..so hav to teach him....i love math but hate calculus..so its the right duty...maybe go jogging...hang out...shopping...read and laze...haha...PS i love you...thts what im curently reading...=)

relationship status quos

ive just realized that many people have perceptions of how things will be once they are in coll..as usual...we are deceived..we always xpect 4 ourselves to enjoy n it being much better than current situations...but once it happens...then u go, what was the biggie? just like....birthdays...we go around thinking tht a year older means a year wiser n that it will feel different...but really..does it? bsides gift, extravagent parties, nope..we dont..its the same...just another passing day...so yeah, some may leave loved ones behind..once they are heading 2 coll....nt talking abt fam mems n stf...im talking abt relationship partners...after all, college should have a wide variety of ppl rite? i mean, what could go wrong...??? only when ur there tht u realize ( what u had...u should of kept it)....maybe regrets? but whats the point anyways? days go by in a blink of an eye, so y hesitate? move on? in many cases, things are better said than done...this is one of them....forgetting someone u loved, letting go, is one of the hardest thngs...its that feeling of love, n being love that makes it all the more harder....

random day

thnk im in a much better mood...i should be...since im done with exams...next week is raya hol, kinda happy...feel exhausted! ha! ya well...prob just hang out with frens, eat, family, shop ;)....cant get enough of shopping...but well, college makes u realize u NEED more stuff...clothes etc...it almost becomes a necessity...ah which makes me think of our uniform days...ahhh..those were the times...i can say i absolutely hated uniforms...the fact that ....ok secondary uniform...the pinafore...holes on the sides....hmmm...very uncomfotable...then they make u wear a tie! it looked horrible...so now its like...ur responsible for how u look...its all u...u can make a statemnt..sum ppl stray away...lay low....hide away...or are too afraid to take risks...are u this person??? let ur dressing or fashion sense define you...(it works, or so im told ;)

woohoo!!!!!!

done with mid terms..it went ok..im shocked..so now..back to the worry free life..erm ok...my life is never worry free..coz i tend to worry even abt the littlest things so yeah...;)...isnt a good thing...i need some relaxation techniques...but well, now i hav 2 make serious decisions...like....the coll i wanna transfer to in the US....its complicated coz i want something but the parents feel otherwise.... ( i rote sum other stuff but internet connection logged me off, so this is whats left)

post later! =)

stressed out!!!!

ahhhhhh...so stressed out...mid terms later...was supposed 2 be at 6 but was made earlier..so 5-7....cant wait 2 be done with it! short sem seriously sucks...who would have known what we thot would be so laid back tended to be otherwise? well, in clas they were trying to ask the lect if we could post pone the test...n of course...she said...NO!!!!...haha...yeah well..have to live with the truth sometimes...its today..even if u arent ready...u stil have to go thru with it...procrastination gets u nowhere! so learn from those mistakes...laziness...so until 7...ill be studying n well sitting 4 the test altogether...then i shall treat myself to something...treat myself, gosh! so wish there was a guy...haha...but nah, by the looks of things im better off single..what with my plan of getting a transfer as soon as possible..so unless the guy is going in the same direction, i doubt ill make stuff complicated....u know how u may feel like colls in msia are all positive not much negativity like in the US etc...but ur sooooo wrong...alot goes on and it bugs me...its like...nilai??? msia??? so yeah, in a state of shock coz of it all...study week is next week...combined with raya hols...im waiting 4 the long break...18th bday! legal age...still debating if i wanna do anythin big...the reason ive been putting off alcohol ( afraid too many secrets will be revealed...so does that mean i hav too many? )....even wine gets me tipsy...but what do u expect from an amateur drinker? ;)..so many the body does need some kind of exposure...n instead of lazing 4 the hols...gonna put the time to good use...i know like how i couldnt wait 4 spm to be over...long break, etc...but it DOES come to a point where ur like...what day is it? wat did i do yesterday?? so maybe just a short break...stay in the cities, get a job, make some moolah! ;)

late nights, exams!

mid terms 2morro...history....ive been cooped up for 13 hrs....didnt go out this whole day...nt even for food....managed with what little groceries i have..so ill have to get supplies after class...constant studying makes u awfully hungry! hope all goes well...this better pay off! ;)...right now im listening to this song by TI...watever u like...n one block radius u got me...awsome song...listen to it....=) brain hurts, if thts even possible...ahhhhh...cant wait 2 get it over with...

the jonas brothers

many people have different opinions on the jonas brothers...some may be related to their music, while others are abt their looks, etc...as we are all aware of...the group consists of kevin, joe and nick jonas...kevin gets the least bit of attention...(they say is the least good looking)...heres a pic for those who dont know who these guys are but i seriously doubt it...

they've had many succesful singles and album...songs which have a catchy beat include, SOS, burnin' up.....

point of views ( not mine )

a) they look gay

b) music sounds fake

so yeah, its up 2 u...u may have ur own opinion...

a few celebrity linkings..

joe jonas with jojo

joe jonas with taylor swift (current)

nick jonas with miley cyrus

so what abt kevin??? it is obvs. he doesnt get much credit except for being in the band and making it a threesome...its like hes in joe and nick's shadow...is this right???

the way people are...

i thought id blog abt this coz this is whats on my mind right now....why do sum ppl have 2 act like such an ass? like a close fren could make u feel so bad when u already were feeling bad in the first place? is it your fault for nt telling or is it theirs for nt taking a hint? some people do things like this...just to please themselves...coz without it, they just arent happy....in other instances, it shows how insecure certain ppl are...this is college life...reality...some ppl may care alot and others may not even give u a chance...but doesnt matter...stay true to yourself...n this is the time when u learn to differentiate right and wrong...choose frens...know which frens are good ones and which arent..and u tend 2 only realize the faults when ur real close 2 them...and this makes u wonder...should i let go? is it right to turn your back on someone who was once ur closest pal? but is it ok for someone to treat you badly even when at times they are just kidding? but u still feel the twinge..so isnt it just as bad? a million question marks are going through my head...i wish i had an answer...i wish i could talk to someone abt this...but yet its 'the person who made you cry the one who can make things alright'...so yeah, its complicated....so a briefing on the weekend...cousins bday...drama at home...wanted to post pics and continue on some topics but the connection sucks and i have to study 4 mid-terms!

people come, people go...

so my fren left to russia..was upset...but life still goes on...ur life is what u make it...so i guess i cant hold on to something tht isnt in grasp any longer...she was one of my best frens..so yeah, it was hard...but shes gone to pursue her dreams...n ill be doing the same soon,...just funny how u can be the one who planned 2 go overseas first but every1 who didnt just leaves first? haha...i find that really odd...its like...what are the odds? gonna miss her but i guess we'll make up for it when she comes for break...but we will never know what will happen when...so wherever time takes us...we'll be ok...ive been feelin pretty sick this past few days...no idea why...probably just the weather...haha...neways...back to the topic...people come into ur life and they eventually leave...just the circle of life...just dont hate them 4 leaving...but be grateful for the time and chance u had to spend with them...coz in the end, all u have are the memories!

life's little suprises!

OMG...OMG...i cant believe this...my aunt was preggers...her youngest child is 16..so im kinda shocked...had a miscarriage...just these little things u miss coz u arent near by..aunts in the US so yeah...found out over FB! lucky 4 Fb coz it actually keeps u updated n stuff....but im shocked...just goes 2 show that anythin can happen n life will suprise you..with these kinda things...im so not focused...so upset i just dont know what 2 do...i had a few topics...but will post pone...as usual...like how i say ill continue n stuff but never do...will get to that...soon enough...i hope...seriously doubt so many things right now...i hv 2 admit, just this one time...im really sick of love...i am...it makes u feel great (dont get me wrong)...but what do u do when u dont have that special sum1.?? i dont know...u just try n make urself happy with frens n stuff...but the emptiness is still there....but these are the ppl who are always there for you...frens i mean...they'd do anythin...so till u settle down...this is what u rely on i gues....doesnt help the whole emptiness feelin...but yeah..good enuf...4 the time being..i feel like im goin in circles...ah well, guess this tends 2 happen when ur emo...just so much on my mind...goin 4 a walk later so hopefully that helps...goin to the airport 2morro...send my fren off...i hope i dont cry...will make it so much harder...but guess this is what i hav to do if i dont wanna regret it...if i dont go, il always be wondering...so yeah, guess thats the right thing to do...will get back to this later....have to go revise history!

moods...

quite upset now..my fren is leaving...n maybe all of those who told me id feel it were right...i do...it feels terrible....ahhhh...hope 2 get out of this soon...=(...i feel so confused...mixed feelings...

like only a woman can

i have to admit im not a huge fan of brian mcfadden..so wel...hes an ex mem of westlife..was married...then started dating delta goodrem...now i dont know whats goin on there...but nothing from him for awhile..but...when i heard this song...my heart melted..;)

I wasn’t perfectI’ve done a lot of stupid thingsI’m still no angelI wasn’t looking for forgivenessWasn’t laid out by my prideShocked by her attentionAnd someone signed me up for loveI didn’t want itAnd now I can’t live without itShe changed my lifeShe cleaned me upShe found my heartLike only a woman canShe pulls me upWhen she knows I’m sadShe knows her manLike only a woman canShe’s kind of perfectShe’s kind of everything I’m notYeah, she’s an angelAnd it’s amazing how she’s patientEven more at times I’m notShe’s my conscienceAnd who decided I’d be hersI wanna hate themCos now I can’t live without herShe changed my lifeShe cleaned me upShe found my heartLike only a woman canShe pulls me upWhen she knows I’m sadShe knows her manLike only a woman canLike only a woman canAnd who decided I’d be hersI wanna hate themCos now I can’t live without herOh, and she changed my lifeShe cleaned me upShe found my heartLike only a woman canShe pulls me upWhen she knows I’m sadShe knows her manLike only a woman can

britney

i used to be a die hard britney fan...so yeah, thot this was interesting..where do u think she was spotted dressed like this?

september 11th

just got me thinking...pray and remember those who were lost on this day...

maybe can have some relation to my debate topic!

tests!

im so stressed...test 2morro...n yea history...so haha...just loads 2 read! short sem makes it so hard..like no time to do anythin..all u do is class, test, debates, presentations and assgns! so yeah, stressful...right now just listening 2 songs...had a weird convo with the family...i miss home...its like while im at home..i wish i was sum place else...but still, theres no place like home! =)...it can be horrible...but its stil home...get the point? haha...i made someone so mad at me...unintentionally but still feel bad..lately just havent been myself...n i have to admit that...in some cases, i feel like i come 2nd, or im misunderstood or that ppl do stupid things just coz u approve of one! its annoying..bsides this all is well...had a fun day in KL...had good dinner...jst tht i feel at times my metabolism rate is going high n been feeling sick....so yeah...its odd...my frens off 2 russia next week...its sad...=(..ah well, ppl come n go...frens come n go...haha...tht sounded wrong...just thot id say it coz it came 2 mind...2morro's friday!!! after test, weekend...didnt intend to go back but gonna coz i have to go see my fren before shes off 2 russia...so just gona spend some time with her...have fun for one last time...OMG...this is putting me in an even more odd position....better go...internet connection sucks...and better start hitting the books!!! TEST!!! andre 3000 and john legend...greenlight...cool song...=)

life as we know it...

im so tired..so this will be short...i realize how unfortunate some ppl are...maybe its just the circle of life..some ppl are less fortunate than the others? is that fair? n we seem 2 put ourselves below others...is that right? should we be helping those who arent as lucky as we are? some may say, NO...coz they didnt work for it so serves them right..but maybe we are supposed to...but no1 will ever knw what they are suppose 2 do...unless u hav this instinct or smthn...so neways...what got me to think abt this is like when i took the ktm to mid v...then on the way to the mall...there was this guy on the side walk...he had clearly been abused...it was sad...=(...n he was just there...every1 walked past him...n on the way out...it was raining and he was still there...are humans really this cruel? till we have no feelings for the rest of mankind? i feel so sick right now..so gna stop riting 4 now...will get bk 2 it later of i hav anythin else 2 add...till then ill be dizzy and trying 2 get my history assgn done!

a day in the city..=)

as u can tell by the title..yeah, heading to KL in abt an hour...pretty odd morning so far..mainly coz i was so tired and dazed...and didnt read the notes..so got asked n was rather lost...still hav this tinge of guilt..OMG! then she said she wanted to see me ( the lect)...they cant wanna see u jst coz u forgot to read the notes right? hopefully it isnt abt tht...but right now im just being way too paranoid...ahhh...typical me...prob gonna have loads of fun 2day..so just gna 4get abt tht till she actually asks to see me...so then ill find out...but have no idea what it could be...yesterday i had a quite awkward xperience...walkin suddenly this guy comes and asks...'arent u my girl?'...i was like 'what?!!!'...dunno if he was drunk or what...but ah well...goes to show that yes inti students are pretty much going insane..neways...gonna get to my history notes before i go 2 kl...have to study while i can...till then....ill b cleaning my room and heading to kl...n yeah, history! ;)

lipstick jungle

Based on the best-selling book by Candace Bushnell (Sex and the City), this enticing new comedy-drama follows three high-powered friends as they weather the ups and downs of lives lived at the top of their game. Nico, editor-in-chief of a hot fashion magazine, has her eye on becoming CEO. Movie exec Wendy does everything she can to balance career and family. And free-spirited designer Victory longs to make her dreams come true, and maybe find Mr. Right along the way. Armed with humor and strength, these three modern New York women support one another through the triumphs and tears that are all part of making it big in The Big Apple.

be happy..=)

i havent been happy that much lately...by reading the posts u can tell ive been rather emo n stuff....just been dealing with loads n i guess the ppl around me havent been makin me feel any better...just been making it whole lot worse but they just didnt realize that...i cant blame them..no1 can read minds...so if i have a prob i guess i hav to open up...just deal with things one at a time...go with the flow...n y bother abt what others think? live ur life for you...not for them...i have been noticing that loads of ppl seem 2 care more abt what others think rather than worrying abt themselves...whch is quite irrational if u ask me...do stuff for you....please urself but please others too...u only hav one chance to live...stuff happens 4 a reason...there may be sumthin even bigger and better waiting 4 u in the future...so dont give up and feel so depressed over a small issue...u may nt hav realized, bt there are heaps of ppl who love u and will always b by ur side...so keep these ppl by ur side and not worry abt the rest...=)...just got a phone call...this person made me feel so much better...and plus a whole day of hard thinking...finally paid off...2morro is my frens bday..so KL here we come...

ive been listening to some really nice songs...
-john legend & andre 3000 > green light
-colby callait and jason mraz> lucky
-secondhand serenade> fall for you
-the script> the man who cant be moved
-new stuff by linkin park
-rihanna> disturbia
-chris brown> forever
-coldplay> viva la vida
-leona lewis
-david archuletta> crush

n loads more
wil update when i remember the rest! ;)

pressured

i feel so alone at the moment...i wish i knew why...=(

life...in general

just came in...been having sum pretty weird days...like...friday night...went home 4 a day...then sunday...then yesterday...was ok...cuzins bday...so went there...(had good food =) )....had fun with fam...for once...haha...our family gatherings n stuff dont normally go well..been hanging out n stuff...but somethings missing its so obvious..so i feel like i hav to be honest abt stuff or im never gna figure this out...honest to myself...was crushed coz of a guy...but thats so yesterday....then theres the whole family issue...then theres my xtreme shyness...then coll.....honestly less than xpected and gosh...at times i just dont know...a person who i thot i could tell everything to...i just cant...and worst of all...i feel like im judged...by almost everyone...but thats normal...we judge and get judged...i care abt stuff but ppl think i dont...feel so misinterpreted....2morro is my frens bday...so we r going to hang out in kl...should be awesome...=).....i need 2 feel happy...coz i havent been that happy lately...dont know why...so yea...have to think abt it and figure loads out...still...gosh...haha..i think ive said that before..the whole figure stuff out...just goes to show that i barely figured anythin out....ah well..

100% crushed

blushing n stuff isnt a good thing...the sweet innocent stuff, maybe...but embaressed blush...nope...got totally humiliated by the lect...god knows why...but i felt like she was pickin on me the whole time...felt like the longest 2 hrs of my life! =(...i dont know why but lately ive been feeling so alone...like there are frens yet i feel like im doing everythin on my own n no1's bside me...i guess it has to do with the whole faith issue as well...faith issue? i strongly blived in the existence...of god...then i came to a point where i started to question it...it isnt a good thing...but im admitting that i do feel this way...there are a million things i need 2 figure out...i need direction...the path that is right...ppl to guide me...just so off-track at the moment....guess the whole...coll independence thing is hitting me real hard...but yea...its like when u need ppl to treat u like a child, they dont...n then u feel alone...alone in making choices....n u just dont know who 2 go 2 when ur confused...so yea, it sucks...hope i figure stuff out coz this is driving me insane!

another random night

i think most of us at inti are pretty much going insane...besides those who are into the whole gaming, pool, etc...theres like nothing 2 do...its ok during the weekdays...coz ur bz with clases n stuff, but what happens when ur stuck here during the weekends too? i was sooooooo bored...so this is what went on yesterday....hung out....showered at like 10...hair soaking wet...cold...then it rained...so we were walkin in the rain...was fun...but just makes u think of that moment ( the one with a loved one; if u kiss even better! ;) ).....so nvm...haha...not with any1 yet so yeah...just me and the girls....so first sitting around just talking n stuf....then ok...real bored...headed to the bakery...cake...yum....saw ppl doing hip hop...the place was pretty much dead...its weird coz we just had a break like 1 or 2 weeks ago...n ppl r still going home..so yeah...but then...when ur in the bakery u realize that there r loads of ppl in the cc...haha...so maybe thats where every1 went...maybe somethin was going on...haha...but i was quite ignorant...didnt give a damn of what was going on in there...or oblivious for that matter...so then had a tour...stairways were dark n all....just did a bit of exploring...should consider the adventure club! ;)...so then walked thru these back streets n stuff...was dark...so i like saw this red shirt and i told my fren...but guess she was too caught up n didnt realize...so yeah, it was a couple...what are the odds? its like this weird thing we have going on...back streets are for couples...its like a self-acclaimed right i guess...haha...n of course its ok if u hav sum1, if not a bit weird...and some girls say they just walk n get called lesbians...so erm, yeah...then walked n stood in front of block d...then somemore frens came...then they were like lets watch a hindi movie..so to the dining hall we went...haha...n i dont watch any foreign movies...like really...i think its the lack of interest in reading subtitles...haha....the interesting bit abt tht movie was that in the end,..it said 'this is the beginning'....i found that really weird....n had a burger..n theres a girl who hangs with the 'burger guy'...so yeah, shows that we honestly have nothing much to do...so came in like at 1....came online...slept at 3.,..got up at 8...lot happened in the morning but nt gna fill u in yet....n i just realized that the reason as to why no guys ask me out might b bcoz i hang out with a guy n that may b a bit of a misintepretation...but watev...nt like theres any guy im after at coll...haha..or just that im downright unapprocable...but i fell for this guy...like real hard...but it didnt work out...guess it wasnt meant to be..n i tell ppl that theres no1 on my mind...but i hav never truly let go...but i guess theres just hope to a certain extent...then the image of the person just fades...maybe its coz u havent seen him 4 awhle...or maybe its just a sign...but anyways...im trying to go with the flow...n take watever is thrown to me...n i think i should gain some courage...i hav talents...yet i cant say i do...i dont know...just the shyness or sumthin....n i stay secretive for alot of stuff...i just dont know why..but im gna start opening up...=)....hoping to have an ok weekend...only going back for a day...long story....i also feel that i dont update as much coz at times things get too personal n i just dont know how to put stuff in words at times....trying to...working on loads of things...ppl may not get me...but its important that you have ur desires n stuff...its what keeps u on track...=)

i thought this was relevant to my mood...
shine-
Everyone knows that I'm ten feet underTill you come along and brighten my dayEveryone knows that you kill the thunderThe worry in my brainYou've given me the strengthTo see you right through the haze
Shine, come on and let it shineLight me up, make me feel aliveYou've got what it takesShine, and only you know how to lift my spirit off the groundAnd chase those clouds awayShine on me today
When everything's wrongI just pick the phone upThe sun in your voice really fills my eyes with tears of joyCause I know you'll be thereWhen I'm hanging by a threadYou're my heaven sent
Shine, come on and let it shineLight me up, make me feel aliveYou've got what it takesShine, and only you know how to lift my spirit off the groundAnd chase those clouds away
Oh you have this way of making me feel like I can flyYou're underneath my wingsSo I'll free fall out of the skyYou're always there to save meYou know you'll save me
Shine, come on and let it shineLight me up, make me feel aliveYou've got what it takesShine, and only you know how to lift my spirit off the groundAnd chase those clouds awayCome on and shineShineShine on meShine on meShine on meShine on me today
Everyone knows that I'm ten feet underTill you come along and brighten my world

easier than love?

getting annoyed of posting coz sumtimes i rite so much and it just gets lost..so yeah...internet connection is quite messed up here...is there anythin easier than love? those who have xperienced heart break know exactly what i mean...its just so hard to forget that someone...u can convince urself, fool urself into thinking its for the best...but still wonder abt what could have been....things happen 4 a reason...we may say this but not always blieve in it...what is the remedy of getting over that special someone? do u cry so much ur eyes are swollen? or do u go for comfort food (ice-cream, chocolate...)...love is it..what makes our lives complete...just has that effect on us...whether we like it or not...will continue on this topic later...till then...gonna get something 2 eat...starving!

1st day of classes

1st day of classes were good...music n history...just that everythin happens twice as fast coz of the whole short sem thing whch im trying 2 get used to...so diff compared to a long sem...just feel like theres no time...so should be stuck here most of the weekends...anyways...have to think abt my presentation...i just dunno what i should do...i cant play an instrument..so maybe, sing or presentation or take up a challenge and learn a dance? ;)....stil no roomie...just feel like theres a bit of a lack of enthusiam for the 2nd sem...prob coz got results yesterday and 2days classes...not satisfied so gotta put in the extra effort ( most definetely )...met a few interesting characters...=)....all is well so far....

2nd sem

xpected to hav a roomie...hmm...i was so wrong...no idea wat happened 2 her...so just takin it as i hav a single room 4 awhle...kinda nice actually...not very satisfied with results...so gna start working hard...nothing comes easy...tomorrow is the day that my classes officially starts...hope all is well...feels good 2 be back...funny thing is..when u arent here, u hope 2 b back...but when u get bk u dont feel it at all...thts the odd part...nah, a short sem should b ok...well, hopefully =)

back to coll...

will be heading back in awhle...im really happy...to be honest...n i feel bad abt that...nt tht the hols didnt turn out wel...just that loads of drama went on...loads of stuff happened...sumthins tht i wish didnt...heart in the wrong place...felt like i was losing touch with everything...but im probably just being extra paranoid ( as usual )....sumtimes i feel like nobody worries as much as i do...i tend to get so anxious and overwhelmed and at times...u just feel like telling urself to put it to a hault...n just focus on other things that are less painful....floor smells like dog....just random thought..haha..tht i thot i'd share...gna meet my new roomie...im so curious...to see who it is and wat shes like...things just werent as expected during the 1st sem...but i do feel like i know more now...so maybe thats a good sign...but we will just never know wats gna happen...so should just stay focused and live life just as it is! =)