weekend was pretty interesting...drinking, yup....but lets not get into that...weeks are going by so fast...its like...first its monday...and then in a blink of an eye, its friday...like wow....things have been nothing but hectic....constant studying, work...assignments, etc...can drive one crazy...but guess im coping pretty well, for a change...weird? everythings weird to me...i say everyone and everything is weird...seriously have no idea what thats about....been having some odd dreams...first i dream of lecturers, then prev. flames, boyfriend, friends...the annoying part is, the important or interesting ones are the ones i cant seem to remember...and i get so frustrated...as usual, im coping with my fare share of 'friend drama'...i really dont know what to do anymore....i wanna give up, yet i cant...i mean, if you give up that easily..are you really worth it all? should you be called a 'friend'...? i really wish i had answers...different people give me different views of course....and thats the problem with asking for opinions...you can be unsure..and by the time you're done making the rounds; you're even more confused! some say 'its not your fault, let it be'...and others say 'confront and talk about it'...my question is : what do i really want now? cause honestly im sick and tired of stooping down for others, just cause they are all 'emo' or 'frustrated'...its like...ok if you tell me whats going on...not if you suddenly act all weird...i dont read minds...i wish i did, but i dont...then the whole of this weekend...i was craving for pringles...sour cream and onion pringles...yummy :)...but i didnt get any....i tried to...but got annoyed and gave up..so i went to the shop...pringles are there..stacked...so HIGH up...like one can on top of the other, on the highest shelf..so if you were to pull the one at the bottom, the rest would come tumbling down...annoyed...i thought 'maybe im not meant to have any today'....so i didnt...everything feels so different...havent seen the friends ive been dying to see...the whole week...or whole two weeks...and some are right here, yet i havent...its sad if you ponder upon it....and the friends that are far away...are telling me how they feel they are losing me....i guess this is when distance becomes the test...it tests your strength...like really....and yes, still dealing with the roomie...with her; i'll never understand..its so bizzare...
well, i better tend to my work...updates shall come once i have more to muse about...
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