shattered; somewhat.

it took awhile, but yes im back :)...not exactly in the best of moods and i know its pretty easy to fake it when ur typing or writing...noone can sense that tinge of emotion...but im not gonna do that...no faking...except that one smile at the beginning...i feel so pressured, i feel weak...just sick and tired of everything...and i mean it..every little thing that wasnt ok, but that i acted like it was...so yeah...guess its all taking up way too much energy...and most of all; i dont know where certain people are when i need them the most...i miss one person in particular; and this person probably doesnt even know it..and its odd how when u cant see the person; thats when u wanna tell them everything...but u cant...it sucks...reality : u cant have everything u want....u never will have everything u want..so where do we go from there?