love and everything else...

ok...the weekend was pretty good; like really...to the extent that certain people were surprised to hear that i had a good time..which made me wonder...do i really put off going home? so often? then i realized that my recent posts have sounded rather 'confused'...first i said i wanna do this, then that...so idk...just scratch all that..whatever that seems to be like that...love..im still on the subject...or well i always am...just that i try not to bore people by talking about it over and over again..afterall, whats the harm? we all fall in love, or wanna fall in love right? so its relevant...once again i miss so many people...and you know who you are...sometimes it gets so hard...trying to be strong and not being able to be strong..then ive been having my whole sleeping problem...it scares me; cause i barely sleep and yet im so hyper...even at 4am..so yeah....i always wish i had answers...answers to love related taboos, etc, etc....the night i was watching one tree hill...i actually teared, its sorta odd...the lady was talking about how haley can look past all nathans mistakes and still find a way to forgive him...i guess thats awesome in its on way...forgiving...maybe thats an aspect of love..i mean a stronger aspect that we always look past...just in a writing mood...