the quest for answers.

answers..dont we all need them? i feel like lately; im more lost than ever...spiritually, emotionally..whatever possible way...its a horrible feeling..a.nd im sick of acting like its all under control cause it really isnt..the more i pretend, the harder it gets....im under so much pressure..for one....everyone seems to busy for me...and i cant stand it...then like...when i dont see certain people, my relationship with them sorta breaks...we grow further apart...then theres the fact that you have a million things to say but you dont get the chance to...and when you do get that chance, you dont feel like doing it anymore..all in all...i hate this friday...i didnt expect it to turn out like this..not the slightest bit...i feel like crying but i cant..i hope the weekend turns out a whole lot better.