packing :(

thats what im up to right now..funny how its the hols and i havent been updating...i think i do update more when im studying n stuff..haha...packing....just so much...think moms on the way...so then ill have some help...have this massive headache...i stuffed things everywhere...have to leave some stuff behind...my mag collections....arghhh....i want them....:'(.....ah well...if i dont have a choice, bye bye..i dont know if i always had this much stuff or if it multiplied over time....honestly i think i shop more when im at home but idk...im sad...i cant believe it...i mean, im coming back next year...im just gona miss the people...bf...friends...guards ;)...small talk...haha...n just the interesting people here...( not that they are all that remotely interesting, just the fact that some crazy stuff goes on here; thats what amuses me).....n my search for me...funny huh...but yeah, wanna figure alot of stuff out...we only have one life to live...so its abt time i make the most of it...so holiday resolutions...insane but yeah, hope it includes alot of discovering, my 18th, xmas, new years and then coll in jan09...i have quite a few plans already...so i guess thats a start...n im in a good mood....plus the headache...so maybe thats a good sign...no random bitchy-ness...haha...im always like that... its outta control....and in many ways...i wanna stop contradicting things i say......i better get back to my mess...