just thought i would rite abt this...i have left the whole blog unattended...at a certain point, idk...felt like sumthins still stay personal...whether u like it to or nt...deep down everyone struggles...its more of how u handle stuff and carry on...how u pick urself up each time u fall and how fast u do it...anyhow, it varies for different ppl...some ppl find comfort in talkin abt their problems whereas some ppl r fine just keepin it all to themselves...it differs...sick romantics...i dunno...many a times, i feel like i am one...i can say i give up on love...give up on the whole idea of it...or just dont wanna think abt it...but i still do...i say i've let go of the person...left all the feelings behind...yet i havent...i can fake it and fool myself into thinking tht i can lie to myself and eventually it will just go away..and i wil move on with things..but how fast does that work? i feel like noone has the answer to this...loads of times..i feel like i can relate to certain characters in tv series n stuff...i dont know if thts naive...but i just feel that it does relate...on one way or another...i could use many ways to explain this, but ill stick to one...one tree hill...haley and nate hit it off real early...nate helps her find her happy place...n tht is with her music...she later figures out tht she cant find it without being with him...he still loves her but cant go on with the relationship...he stays mad and feels like he cant 4give her coz he cant trust her...doesnt know when he will b able to look past it...haley feels terrible...aggitated at the same time...coz she tries to regain his trust...but it just doesnt work...he loves her but just doesnt know if shes back for good and if he can trust her...so yea, two ppl who hav problems...are mad at each other...but yet, they know they love each other...just a matter of time...and they will never drift too far apart...maybe its a matter of how u feel...that feeling you get when its the right person ( at least feels right at first )....u can tell someone abt it but yet they tell u ur being stupid...but just the little things tht make it feel real...and sometimes u feel certain things are signs...like when ur abt to think tht the person just doesnt care, he/she actually does...or there are the times when u focus on it soooo much yet u arent sure whether anythin will happen...and lastly, the times when u feel the person feels otherwise, but...if they wanted to be with u...u'd totally go 4 the opportunity without a thought...the feeling of nt knowing ur circumstances...not knowing what to expect..so well...thts love...thts life...we may feel we have answers...we may feel like experience just might bring us one step closer to unlocking tht uncertainty...and so if one of us does, we could help those who never even let that thought cross their minds...but i seriously feel like nobody is ever gonna figure that out...its just a matter of finding the right person...tht person who lets u be u...n not tht other person u wish u were...just YOU...
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