just a brief insight.

why just why havent you seen me updating lately? and yes, of course there are reasons...which im not getting into...i just cant get myself to put those thoughts into words...plus maybe at times its better to just leave the past behind...cause it may come back to haunt you nonetheless...so why ask for it? what sorta mood am i in right now? i feel like im loved; at times probably so much more than i deserve....i have so much; more than i need...so why do i complain? its just how human nature is...we love the word MORE...so if so, im one of the fortunate ones...one who has more than others...i sometimes feel like the whole cycle is messed up...like some have so much...yet some have little...some have close to nothing...but thats that...thats how it is...lately, i've realized how much more i want certain things...the things i want...those things i yearn for; scares me...probably more than anything else right now. sorta insane- believe me. so whats been happening lately? whole lotta drama; i mean whats new? then lots and lots of work...tests...have another one this week...sometimes i just feel like giving up...get myself all stressed up...over these things...so then ive been hating inti this weekend...taking over our bathrooms for camp children...then having no water in the morning ( i have panicking; had class at 10! )...and then my AC isnt working...utter crap...im soooo annoyed...cause i find it hard to sleep without aircond...maybe i deserve this...maybe its a lesson of some sort; god i dont know...just have to manage...ahhhhhhh!!!!!!