results

results..satisfied with them...like very satisfied with them for once..so anyways, ill get back to the writing soon...gotta enjoy whats left of the hols...going back to coll tomorrow night..then its two days till the new sem! enjoy the rest of it :)

american idol and adam lambert

i wanted so badly to post a picture of him...but thanks to the slow transferring speed that cant be done...so for those of you who have no idea who the guy is....google him or something...so yes...hes linked to AI...excellent singer/ performer...or whatever else you may call it...he always brings his best to the table..what got me to suddenly feel inspired to write about AI or adam? the fact that theres alot of controversy...controversy in the sense that some think he may be gay...so they've been asking AI reps...him...but no info is given...so in this thing...or well this article produced...not gonna state the source...they were questioning...or well...that certain person felt lost...or well confused...not knowing if a gay contestant could win? after all, its a talent show...hes expected to sing...the winner is expected to be the best singer, best performer, the best all-rounder...so whats this talk about being gay or not being gay? if you're being judged based on these criteria, how does 'sexuality' play a part? or determine if you're qualified to win or lose? i know that downright this is not gonna affect the decision of american viewers...but im just slightly annoyed...annoyed for the fact that that is even questionable...how low could you dig...to come up with utter....not gonna say it...just what makes you think that thats the right thing to say? or well..what makes you think that its even an issue? *another one of the times where i wish i could read minds*...seriously...

the 'interesting' beginning of hols

so i got done with finals on thursday...the fun didnt really begin right there...seeing as how some of my friends were only done on saturday...thursday was fun..just the whole feeling of relief and stuff like that...just relaxed that night...fun begin on friday night...my friday was packed..was up early...went for a movie...'hes just not that into you'...its a really good movie...talks about relationship rules and how people of the opposite sex often misunderstand each other...then was just hanging out...ice-cream etc...things got a bit out of hand at night...i was sorta thinking...less and less things actually scare me...its weird...soon i wont have much i fear of...fear of certain aspects anyways...and then i decided im re-organizing my life...are there any things you wish you've done but have never had the guts to bother? or what about things that are so un-like you? stuff that you would do to perhaps- prove a point? if you have any suggestions, feel free to leave a comment.

i could write alot honestly, brain is over-flowing with inspiration..and haha...about how my hols have been going...i've decided that i CAN get into detail...but im not going to...maybe some things are better left unsaid-- what you dont know wont hurt you; it will just increase your curiosity levels by a whole lot!

woohoo!

done with finals; time to celebrate, relax and soak up the sun!

happy hols everyone...have a good one...see you in two weeks :)

drawing closer to the END

its just the ending of my finals...not anything else...no done with the program or anything like that...ahha...lot of my friends are already out celebrating...one word 'ENVY'...more than anything right now..one more day to go, just one more day....ive been feeling time is somehow slowing its pace...maybe its just me...i want it to be done with more than anything...so by 10 am tomorrow, im officially done with my 3rd sem...gosh, time flies by fast...im not even gonna give you that brief 'glance' into the future...we pretty much know how certain things are gonna happen...despite of whether we mention it or not...as usual, im getting my fair share of craziness...the people around me...even the ones who dont realize the impact they have on my life...its just that lately, im starting to realize that its those little things that give me hope...and make me grateful...i guess everyones view on certain things change over time-- whether you like it or not....so just keep living life to its fullest!

strength to carry on.

one more day of exams to get through...THURSDAY...then its hols; i cant wait! just the in between stages that are killing me...first the fact that im so lost...i mean you know how when you could care less about anything...people ask you stuff...you answer...then afterwards you're thinking about it...and its like 'what?!'...seriously have no idea what happened...anyways...english yesterday went well...i felt like i produced two masterpieces...haha...nah, just sorta wrote like it wasnt an exam...that gave me the calmness....days have been rather odd...feel lonely come exam time...everyones just doing their own thing and so am i...its just that when i need someone by my side; it gets hard...pulling through...just need to get myself through two more days...then im FREE...gosh i love that word...haha...anyhow, need some caffeine; then back to the books. Happy studying!

F.I.N.A.L.S

finals start tomorrow...today is easter...everything is happening all at once and its so hard to keep track of it all...im not all nervous like i usually am-- so i guess everythings under control...for once...have a study date soon so that should be interesting...just want a change of environment is all; or else i'd just sit alone...plus its always nice to be around people...right now...im hungry...its sorta early for dinner..so maybe later or something...honestly cant wait for the hols...dont have much or well- ANYTHING planned...but i'll get there...once i have time to actually think about it and plot a plan...gosh that just sounded so evil...haha...neways...good luck for finals! and happy holidays for those who are done :)

mercy

for those who are christians..happy good friday...and have a blessed easter.

since thats out of the way...onto other things..haha...my day has been great so far...the thing is...try to relate to this...everything is going surprising well for a change...or maybe its ur optimism that changes everything..so well...all is going good for once..and suddenly this one abrupt thing alters it all....just the things that come out of nowhere...things you might have never expected...so yes; it catches you off guard...i mean really...then u have mixed feelings about everything...yet again; thats the one thing that causes you to be grateful...how does someone relate to that? i mean like-- seriously.

so here i am-- begging for mercy; or something of that sort.

gives you hell.

exams are coming up...soon...like in 4 days...cant wait for them to be done...but ive been upset...--upset for the fact that my english class came to an end...dont be quick to judge me based on that though...haha...i just really enjoyed it...and time went by so fast this semester...in a blink of an eye the sem is ending...or well technically its done...just finals in the way...yet i want it to be done ASAP...so that i can relax and have fun during the hols...plus i cant stand CSC! haha...and i realize that i need to find someone who can tolerate me...or well, im too energetic..so someone who can stay up as long as i do...and function with little to zero sleep...i miss so many people...friends who i barely see...not depressed over it...just a thought that came to mind...and im looking forward to the hols- no doubt...just cant figure out where i wanna be...wheres my place? that sorta thing...and plans, etc...havent come up with much..but whatever it is; there are some things that i need to get out of the way!

happy studying; good luck for finals!

final week

yes, its officially the final week of the sem..then next week are finals...preps? idk...scared to comment on that...but well, its getting there...its holy week...sorta interesting...im still debating on whether i should go home for maundy thursday, good friday, etc...parents want me to come...still quite indecisive though..ah well, i have about three days to think about that..wow, someones alarm just went off...its officially 6.38pm on sunday..someones lazy...hahah...im in a surprisingly good mood....i have some reasons to be and others not to be...main reason...im so sick...and i feel rather weak..almost fainted in church...faint spells- once again :(...something suddenly gave me the inspiration to write...why cant everyone have what they want to be happy? i mean, essentials...like everything going decently well...or having that one person they wanna love and hold...i know theres this saying theres someone for everyone i mean seriously...how true is that? if it were close to the truth, everyone would be with someone in the end? so is it right? does everyone end up with someone? so noone dies alone? nobody ends their life just cause they feel lonely? ok maybe thats a bit besides the point...cause you could infer that maybe if they waited, the right person would come along? so yes, theres some truth to it...just sorta seeing things in a new light...genuinely happy and grateful...sorta counting my blessings....guess its the right time to- or well, about time i do....i have so much...and sometimes i wish everyone felt that warmth...the warmth that is brought by love...just knowing that someone or well quite a few people really care....and will always be there, without a doubt...not getting emo just thinking about alot...if i could have one wish, dont ask why...but if i could...i'd wish that i could mend all those broken hearts. hows that for a confession? cause i seriously cant stand to see those who deserve so much- suffering...just cause they feel lonely. -Love is what makes the world go round

H.O.M.E

no place like it...finally going home again..hardly ever do...have so many plans; cant wait! :) :)...have a good weekend everyone.

marley and me

this movie was really good...heart warming...and being the dog lover that i am-- loved it even more...but of course its something everyone can relate to...its about life...and challenges...and it shows you; no matter how hard things get, there are still those small things that make life worthwhile. i read the book before watching it so i guess it was an excellent combo...should make sure you get to watch it...so worth it :)

-everything-

this has been a pretty weird week...ive been getting sick so often....im so moody...idk...its like i myself dont know whats going on anymore...and ive been getting the whole 'u dont tell anyone anything-thing'....gets rather annoying...so right now..im stuck here cause my eye is red...yet again...i seriously dont know why it keeps happening- wish i knew...updates...have one more assignment to go...and a tutorial on friday...and next week is the last week of classes and the following week i've got finals...time is flying, seriously....im gonna miss ENL...like alot...not everyone understands why i love it so much...is it cause im actually doing decent in the class- nope...is it cause i just plain love english- partly...and some people who've never eve taken the subject said it was boring...i mean if u havent gone thru it; do u even have the right to judge?....haha...at that point, i got slightly defensive....just been going thru the usual routines...im sick of nilai food...i mean; very sick of it....i have quite a few topics to blog abou, but its gonna have to wait...cant focus right now....so good luck with the studying; for finals or whatever it is...:)