Surprise.

Today the person who i least expected to give me answers did. things i have been pondering and thinking about for months are now resolved. this.amazes.me.

i guess you should never underestimate certain things, they will end up creeping up behind you and then give you the biggest shock.

of love and things

schedule is going. sick and going nuts.

*for YOU, I will go all out. That.is.a.promise.

Beginnings

being in a new place and being on your own is indeed a challenge. i have been fighting, fighting alot of things every single day. i guess in a way it tests you- to see how strong you really are. i am thankful for the people who have consistently stood by me, but i guess somethings are all up to you in the end. choices, all the varying decisions are all in your hand cause its your future thats in stake. i hate these moments- i hate feeling like it is all up to me when it really is. I hope to clear my head and take all these things down, one by one. Wish me luck!

*Even though were far apart I love you dearly with all my heart.*

tomorrow

all good things eventually come to an end- it is always hard. something that isnt easy but you just have to toughen up and deal with it.

4 more days of spring break-- then back to tortureeee!

of books and quotes

I have been a huge Nicholas Sparks fan for so long now, longer than I can remember. and if you do not know who he is - its the guy who wrote the timeless classic "The Notebook". it is still my favorite movie of all time. this is one of the quotes that is memorable to me

You are the answer to every prayer I've offered. You are a song, a dream, a whisper, and I don't know how I could have lived without you for as long as I have.

newness

so i really haven't written in a long time. things have been so crazy in that time span. i've fallen and hit rock bottom; numerous times. i lost my writing voice for such a long time but im glad that its finally back. falling and love and being in love is never easy. and if it is, it either isnt love or you have no idea what you're in for. once again confusion has hit me. im in this situation and all i wanna do is tell the world- share what im feeling. but i cant, cause there are those times in which you gotta not tell because the consequences of that one action may be more severe than anything else. so i guess we'll see. i just keep hoping for the best. that is all you can really do in the end.