'forgive and forget'

some things are just that - easier said than done...its easy to say u forgive someone...its a whole different thing to actually do it...we sometimes find ourselves saying those three words 'i forgive you'...just for the sake of doing it...u give urself that comfort...and it makes u look like a good person altogether...

a certain thing may happen to a friend, relative or well just someone so close to you..someone thats so close to your heart...and that person may forgive the wrong doer...(the person who experienced it)...yet u find yourself having a hard time forgiving...as easily as they did...maybe thats being overprotective...loving someone that much that u just cant stand someone hurting them...but if they've forgiven them and moved on, maybe u should too...no point in holding grudges...its better if u try to work things out and move on with life....

in other cases, someone u love may have done something so bad...u still love them...yet its that one thing they did that changes everything...u know u can never forget it...and in this case, u give up...u give up on that person...coz u cant bring urself to give them another chance...its how we get caught up in the moment...at times, a second chance is all they need....

so yeah, maybe all these posts come across as rather erm...emo or something...just what ive been thinking about..maybe the boredom is starting to get to me!

the curse

penelope...thats where the inspiration came from...this girl was ugly...in the eyes of everyone...she looked horrid...a pigs nose...she had to hide away...hide away from the world..just cause they couldnt accept her for who she is...they think that the curse will be broken once she marries a guy...but she didnt want a guy to marry her just coz he pitied her...she wanted a whole lot more....the thing that eventually breaks the curse....her loving herself...loving herself just the way she is...and not asking for anything more...i guess thats a pretty decent moral...accepting yourself for who you are..and not caring about what others think...it comes down to that...just YOU...i guess in the end...thats all that matters...just that we let our minds get so clustered...and sometimes u just feel like they matter more than you...so sometimes i guess all we need is to think about it...and give ourselves more credit...

" i love myself just the way i am"

regrets and hopes

it has taken awhile for me to update...kinda aware of that...barely use the computer nowadays...

regrets
everyone has them...sometimes its more of wondering what could have been...if u dont take that chance, u will never know the outcome...so maybe sometimes its ok to be turned down...at least u know it wouldnt have worked...instead of leaving it and never knowing...maybe thats the worst feeling...but some people prefer not knowing...mainly because they dont wanna feel that...they dont wanna feel the hurt...

hopes
sometimes we hope for alot...things that are way out of reach, doesnt stop us from hoping for the best...at times, its the best thing; or well all u have left...that tiny bit of hope...just that feeling of knowing that stuff could work out the way u want it to...

these hols....ive learnt alot...falling and picking myself up...thought about alot of stuff....and i realized i care and worry about stuff that shouldnt be worried about....all the intimidation...im just grateful i realized it - now is time for changes. caring about the important stuff and letting everything else fall in place.

it worked!

ive settled the problem, so glad...and thankful...i hope i remember this...how it almost ruined me, and how i got back up :)

picking up the pieces

alot has happened... and honestly, im finding it so hard to cope right now...i know the whole blogging thing is purely *writing your thoughts down and voicing out opinions, etc*...but i cant write all this down, too painful of a process...and i'll find it very humiliating...so maybe when i can look back on all this, laugh it off, then i shall pen my thoughts and feelings down because right now ; i just cant...i need to get through all of this...im so thankful to have all the wonderful and caring people who have been with me through this every step of the way...i wish i was strong enough to face the facts on my own...if u read this and are wondering what the big deal is, nvm...if u wanna help, keep me in your prayers...pray for my troubled soul and that i hopefully gain a clear sense of direction...i probably won't be writing for awhile, not until i get through everything...so till then, take care :)

every passing day

so today i watched twilight and madagascar 2...both were good..but i loved twilight...edward cullen is gorgeous...and of course credits for him being in Harry Potter..:)...i think id love it if my bf was that strong and stuff...and can fly and stuff...see the world from like 20 feet off the ground...almost like having a magic carpet ride ;)....then there was the fact that he kept insisting him and bella shouldnt be friends..she knew she was getting herself into alot, but she did it anyways...coz she loved him...and she trusted him...and them laying side by side and stuff...awww....he couldnt even kiss her at first...but could in the end...after she became a vampire too...i read the book..so yeah...liked it from the start...there are quite a few new movies out now...that ill probably be catching soon...to kill time...i enjoy the relaxing, but yeah...kinda wish i had a routine at times....so exhausted...gonna get to bed soon....

missing*

i know it has been awhile...once again id like to apologize...alot has been happening...didnt have internet for awhile...then laptop was at the shop...so didnt get to my mail or the blogging...

i celebrated by 18th recently...maybe thats the one age that makes u feel the difference..every other time when going up the 'age scale'...we dont feel it at all..just a day that u were born, party and everything feels the same...this one has an impact...or maybe it depends on the person....

so the title doesnt have anything to do with something missing...its abt 'missing' someone...or well many people..and those aspects that we once had....its just that feeling of not having the person around...seeing someone almost everyday and then not seeing them at all...:(...kinda emo but yeah...one reason why i wish i was at coll...the freedom, friends and bf time :)....ah well... bear with it for a month more...ive been watching sooooo many movies....some among the list of mine

: the accidental husband
: HSM
: quantum of solace
: fireflies in the garden
: sisterhood of the travelling pants 2
: pineapple express
: college
: definetely, maybe
: the house bunny
: good luck chuck
............and many more

the list goes on and on..so i shall not bore you...then theres the whole list of problems...issues that frens have among each other...im not involved...but its like...i am frens with both of them...so it feels like im always in the middle ; i absolutely hate it...ah well....at least i get to do what i love : read, music, internet, beach. swimming, etc...so its all going good for awhile...till next time (whenever that is...honestly have no idea when ill update next)....gonna go visit my fren for awhile...havent seen her in quite awhile...:)